Friday, November 6, 2015

To my "original" minnesota baby.

Well, I am officially sobbing as I write this.

Deep breath.

Photo courtesy Robert Evans Photography
My sweet Linna Jane.. For four years, you have been the sole pride and joy of our lives. You are the little life that inspired this blog, and you're the reason it's continued for over four years. Very soon, we'll be adding another little baby to our family, and you'll finally become the big sister. While I can't wait to see you shine in your new role, part of me is sad to see you growing up so fast.

Since the day we found out that we were going to be having a little girl, every moment of our lives has revolved around you. You have captivated our entire family with your infectious smile, wit, sass, charm, and personality. Your resilience to change has been remarkable, as we took you half-way around the world to live more than 10,000 miles away from your grandmas, grandpas, aunts, uncles, and cousins. You'll never know any different, but your first few years of life were something most adults only dream of. People from all over the world have been able to follow your journey from the very beginning, all the way to Singapore. You are such an incredible little person.

Your fourth year hasn't been an easy one for your Mama and Papa, but let's face it, you are your Mama's daughter. Talking to you, arguing with you, and reasoning with you, is (I'm assuming) what it's like to reason with me... And THAT is no easy task (ask Papa Saigh). You are so smart, and I'm amazed every day by the things you're able to figure out. Even when you wake up WAY too early, or on the wrong side of the bed, my mornings are brighter because you are here. Although I need a break from you every now and then, I hate being away from you. You've helped me experience emotions and feelings that I never thought were possible, and you gave me the ultimate gift of becoming a mom. You are the reason behind everything I do, and I can't imagine a life without you in it.

Within a matter of days, we'll go from our little family of three, to a family of four. We have no idea if your sibling is a boy or a girl, but we're so excited to welcome another version of YOU into our lives. From the moment we told you that you were going to be a big sister, not a day has gone by where you haven't talked to, hugged, or kissed your baby brother or sister in my belly. The amount of love you have for this baby makes my heart melt.

4-year-old Linna snuggling with Mama Saigh's 37-week baby bump.

There will be times where you'll be frustrated with me, because I can't give you all the attention and affection that you're used to receiving. I want you to know that the thought of this breaks my heart, because having my undivided attention is all you've ever known. But you are such a resilient little girl, and I know you'll adjust well to this huge change. I will always be here for a cuddle, kiss, or just to talk to. Life is about to change, and it may seem difficult at first, but it's a change that will make our family complete. I can't wait to watch you snuggle your baby brother or sister, and eventually stand by, as the two of you laugh and play together. My hope is that the two of you will be the best of friends.

My darling daughter, I love you more than I will ever be able to express with words. You are my entire heart, and I hope that one day you'll realize how incredibly special these last four years have been. We lucked out when you came into our lives, and no matter how crazy you may make me at times, I wouldn't change a thing about you. We're now entering the next chapter of our story. Whenever you feel left out or unheard, always know that you are our "original" Minnesota Baby. You're the inspiration behind the last four years of our lives. You are going to be the best big sister, and the little baby in my belly is so lucky to have you to look up to.

Are you ready, Bugaboo?! There's no turning back now. It's a big change for all of us, and I promise I will be there for you every step of the way.

I love you, Linna Jane.


  1. Well I'm in tears and I'm not even a mom ;) Such an awesome entry, and she'll be so grateful to read it one day...can't wait to see if she's having a little sis or bro, she'll be awesome either way!